1019

Everybody wake up!  We need much power to do something, life only once, please hold on.  (Ok, I just longtime write to this book)

522

ate too much, a little uncomfortable for my stomach, and keep rainning let me feel terrible. My dear,I think of you..

3/13

I just ready for lunch, and watching TV now, sometimes also good to watch of program didn't use brain, let me relax short time. I need do some little thought thing, it can let me distracted.

3/12

I'm always a headache recently, I don't know because of weather or others? Whatever it's unbearable. Writing diary is so hard, I want retrospect what did you do today or what's happened? Coupled with limited English proficiency..., really hard to me.

3/5

I was ate sad ramen for dinner, I don't like a person to do it. Maybe I want to labeled you for mine,  people always greed. I often ridicule on childich behavior and I also one of them. 

Why do we want to grow up? These throes process takes a lot of spirit, why the sad memory in my head big too happy memory? I think I fear uncertainty about the future also cannot control. Think too much is not a good thing, I am just angry own weak.

3/4

I feel terrible, everything let me difficult to accept about you. I know these is behavior of individual, everyone have no power to interfere, but I down. The more you care the point can bring you harm, why do we always learning will not? Damn it! I had enough of own useless.

1/8

I really feel open the appetite in the winter, kept want to eat. I was cooked noodle for dinner and ate oreo chocolate. Both high calorie, I think I want to jog more then 30 minutes to eliminate it tomorrow.

Tomorrow also cold, my new down jacket has not come yet. I want to wear it. (crying)

1/7

After new year, I've been fat! I really eat too much that need to control....,but I feel appetite hard to back. I think I only one way to settle my appetite. Effort sport! But I am hungry now, I am a big eater!

1/3

We have a lot of vexation to grow with age. If our life is a game, we careful because it cannot restart and loading...but everyone only a chance,it is fair from this point.

How to choice your life? nobody knows and nobody can answer you, at least everything that we do  not regret. It maybe a way.

in some degree we are the same foolish
is it naive to the world or is it too strange? that is confused. is it calculate or is it true feeling? i can't distinguish. fine, 'something lost, (but) nothing gained.' fine. new year's happiness. even it's just a fiction.
i can't love myself anymore. i want to love someone, even if not a right one.

1/2

I just haven't go exercise a week who feel body tired when I go exercise today. I can feel start form the zero.....so keep the good habits is important....although it is difficult!

A moment ago I cooked my couple days lunch, as usual it looks not delicious. I want to eat delicious food. (crying)

2013 Happy New Year

The beginning of a new year, If I have a new learning that I think should be a fool. Why? I think a fool can easily of every things, no matter good or bad, learning make self simple.

I have a question, why is happy new year? not bad new year? sad new year? I don't understand happy new year mean? hope a new and good beginning? maybe suffer for some people.