sorry about missed your birthday, almost. recently i usually feel unwell, i think i'm not the one who can sustain my one alone, i mean truly alone, like as when you say something to someone, you'll look forward the reply. but when i got the reply i feel more worse. short and impolite, i don't know how can i continue the invitation. when others do something that i can't expect or i don't want, i feel far far far far to them. that's not their fault, i hope not mine, either. at last i need the unreal but polite relationship... sometimes very fragile and feel get hurt easily, was i hurt someone before? i hope everyone stop hurt each other... i'm not strong enough but i with affections abound in my all. i know you but sometimes i don't. i want you happy if it's hard, i hope i can beside you. good night and good luck. both us.